wow so i kinda forgot i even had this lil site thing lol! so everything is goin pretty good right now actually just got over a couple of hard things but now everything is comin together for the most part & i think i am actually happy! haha so whats new with everyone else? im kinda excited that homcoming is almost here (dec. 2) and then after that my birthday is comin (dec 23) and then christmas!!!!!! yay! haha homecomin should be fun & there's like a group of us 10 goin together out to eat at niemurgs before then goin to fritchers after homecoming! (the ppl goin are jessi & travis , hayden & me, rachel, taylor, olivia, amber, derrick, and cole) so it should be interesting also haha! well everyone i am out for now! hugs-n-kisses-n all that good stuff         

songs im listening to:

- let it rain

- boston 

- bliss (i dont wanna know)

- by the way

- ill be

- best of me

- all for you

- how to touch a girl

- when you were young  

whoopla!!!

well things around here are startin to get a little better thank goodness!  the pageant is coming up soon and thats kinda exciting!!!! i jus found my evening gown lst weekend and it is gorgeous!!!!! its black and silver sparkles!!!! also i found my 8th grade graduation yesterday!!! its teal n sparkly and a halter top style with a shiny silver flower at the top its really pretty!!! it reminds me of a mermaid haha imagine that, me finding a mermaid looking dress lol!  i am sooooooooooooo freakin excited for summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its almost here and i can barely wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! yeah well hmmmm i am beginning to love life once more after a long period of being miserable everyday!!!! it rocks hardcore!!!! track is over now too which i am happy and sad about! state was really fun this year but the weather was the worst it has ever been!!!! on saturday me n fritcher were sooooo freezing that our bodies went numb and sharp pains started shooting throughout our bodies!!!!!! and when our feet hit the ground there was even more pain !!!!! it was miserable! but the bus ride would of had to of been the best as always!!!!!!well i gotta go write 3 poems for english so laters n loves to everyone!!!!!!!

I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!

oh my gosh i am sooooo flippin sick of absolutely everything!!!!!!!!!! my life has officially completely fallen apart and i have no where to turn! i am soooo hating track right now and cant wait for it to be over and fritch n me are soo flippin ticked at a teacher and i am sick of almost everyone in neoga! i hate that i never see my best friends and i have also realized that lovin sum1 stinks big time because i dont even think that they feel the same anymore b/c they never e-mail back or call or anything!!!!  i can't take this stuff anymore... almost havin a breakdown is enough and i am not so sure i can handle another one!!! neoga is so stupid and i can't wait for summer for reasons i dont even know will happen yet and if they dont i am gonna like completely fall apart!!!!! if i could i would get away from all reality!!! my life gets worse everyday pretty much and i just can't take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! waiting for the day when i can look in your eyes n know everythings gonna be ok!  : (

currently listening to:

• move along - the all american rejects
• over my head- the fray
• for you i will - teddy geiger
• grand theft autumn - fall out boy
• the only difference...- panic! at the disco
• best of me - the starting line (awesome song!)

"Best Of Me"

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

here we lay again
on two separate beds
riding phone lines
to meet a familiar voice
and pictures drawn from memory
we reflect on miscommunication
and misunderstandings
and missing each other too
much to have had to let go

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you

we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss girl
we will kiss girl

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont
feeling that we cant
we're not ready to give up

we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

!!!!!* i <3 modeling *!!!!!

hello world

hello all! well things are starting to get a little busy in my world... well track started this week (yay high jump!) but my legs are so sore and tight that i can barely walk at the moment let alone run!!!! and i am modeling prom dresses this saturday (march 18th)(yea we will jus have to see how that goes lol) and i am doing the jr miss neoga thing but it may be cancelled if more people dont sign up!!! i have kinda been on an emotional rollercoaster lately and that kinda stinks!!!!i hate neoga so much and cant wait for summer when i might get a chance to change that!!!!!! im excited bout that...well i am gonna go shoot sum hoops so later people!!!! loves always macy lanae

currently listening to: "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield